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Mental Processes

In the evening, I will leave for Mainz and thence for Bingen. I'll be at Breakpoint 2005 until Monday. Then I'll return to Vienna. As usual, I'm not excited at all (this is not to be misunderstood: what I want to say is that I have neither positive nor negative feelings) and wonder whether the change of surrounding may do some harm to my creative flow, but it's possible that I will be able to get some interesting ideas and meet interesting people - these are the reasons for my visiting the party. I'll take along a notebook (not a computer - a notebook made of paper!) and a pen in order to be able to write during the party so maybe my creative flow will be kept unabridged. I'm not posting the results I get on tests of any kind since they have gotten on blog readers' nerves, but I want to say that when I'm taking tests now, I also try to analyze the mental processes that happen. One conclusion so far is that even culture-fair intelligence tests (supposed t

I'm changing

I'm changing. The focus of my doing in the past was to gain attention and respect (or even admiration). In my days at school, I felt that I constantly had to prove myself. When I took the admission test to the Austrian high intelligence society and passed it in my first year at university, I finally felt that the proof that I was superior was there. Nevertheless I remained pushy: on the contrary, this trait increased as I now had the seemingly naive feeling of being predestinated to great success in my studies and in science, while my marks actually got worse since I wasn't naturally interested in memorizing the facts the medicine curriculum required at that stage. It was good to start computer science as it showed me the real significance of my talents (i.e. that I merely have an easy time with logics-related things compared to other students, while I'm not equally outstanding at memorizing facts). Meanwhile I accept not getting only A's. I'm not forcing myself any